ok so I can cope without Thad around, I miss him, but when Dylan not around, my heart feels all weepy, I know, I know, I am a sad pathetic mum or something, I last saw him on Sunday, and wont see him till saturday as he is at the seaside with his nanny (ok a wet rainy seaside, but its been sunny on weekends when I have been there too)

It takes me a little longer to miss Thad as much as I miss Dylan, its been well over a month now, and I cant wait to see him.

At the same time, I am very frightened to go back to Austria, the prospect of giving birth amid german talkers, and my brain not functioning enough to understand what they are telling me is very very scary indeed!! makes me want a c section where I dont need to understand anything, and if you heard me talk about my last c section you'll understand thats a drastic answer from me!!

Well, I guess Thad is going to have to have a special german birthing language lesson to be my translator for the day!!

Andie